#note to self

"This is for the girls who have the tendency to stay up all night listening to music that reminds them of their current situation.
Who hide their fears, hurt, pains and tears under their smiles and laughs all day on a daily basis.
The girls who WEAR THEIR HEARTS ON THEIR SLEEVE.
The girls who pray things will workout just once and they'll be satisfied.
The girls who scream and cry into their pillows because the rest of the world fails to listen.
The girls who have it hard but don't let anyone know that.
The girls who may never have it easy.
The girls who have so many secrets but will never tell a soul.
The girls who have regrets and mistakes as a daily moral.
The girls who don't always win, who may never win.
The girls who stay up all night thinking about that one boy wondering if he will ever notice her.
The girls who get what they get and don't throw a fit. The girls who TAKE LIFE AS IT COMES, hoping it will get easier somewhere down the road. The girls who LOVE WITH ALL THEIR HEARTS but always get broken.

This is for the REAL GIRLS.
This is for us...

Apple Tree

“Life will break you. 
Nobody can protect you from that, and living alone won’t either, for solitude will also break you with its yearning. 
You have to love. 
You have to feel. 
It is the reason you are here on earth. 
You are here to risk your heart.
You are here to be swallowed up. 
And when it happens that you are broken, or betrayed, or left, or hurt, or death brushes near, let yourself sit by an apple tree and listen to the apples falling all around you in heaps, wasting their sweetness. 
Tell yourself you tasted as many as you could.” 

— Louise Erdrich

Strangers, again

I just saw this vid, as recommended by a friend… a story or something… and it hit me.

Those different stages in a relationship that some people says they go through… are they really all the same?

If I were to make my own version of these stages… it’s gonna go like this:

1. 1.  Strangers
2. 2.  Flirting
3. 3.  Commitment
4. 4.  Honeymoon
5. 5.  Comfortable
6. 6.  Tolerance
7. 7.  <<choose your ending>>

It was mentioned that in every relationship, one of two things will happen: either they get married, or they break up. If someone doesn’t wanna marry, does it mean that they expect a break-up? Problem with some people nowadays is that, everyone’s scared to get hurt, but not all give it a shot—that thing called ‘Commitment’. Many always skip that part, and take it for granted when in fact it’s the most important thing in any relationship, plus all the other formulas attached with it.

Someone once said that, “we always get the same love story that we wanted.” I want to retaliate and say, how about those who fell in love and dreamt of ‘forever’? They don’t necessarily get their happy endings all the time. I also remembered someone saying, ‘when we enter a relationship, we always hope it’s gonna last.’ We don’t enter into a relationship and make a timeline for it… But every relationship has its bumpy roads, it’s strange that not everyone seems to be ready for it. When we get past those hurdles, we get stronger and wiser. And it’s true when they say that arguments are healthy because it opens up each individual to be heard and hopefully, understood. The thing is, not everyone takes these arguments in this light. Some even make it as a leeway to end things up.

For me, relationships are messy… but having that someone who could understand you and accept you for everything that you are, and someone who could be there for you as long as it matters (and even if it doesn’t anymore)… someone who could make you feel happy deep down… someone who could make you feel special and Loved in the most unselfish ways—that for me, is the greatest feeling in the world… both a rewards and gift of which you would whole-heartedly treasure. How many appreciates happiness even when it’s not there in the surface?

It is true that somewhere in a relationship, someone stops trying… something always changes… and it’s always going hurt.

Strangers. They are of different kinds. Some of them are the lives you change, while some changes you. And there are also those who will remain to be a stranger in you.

Wag Na

This is such a nice way of coping up with heart breaks...having wonderful friends with "Band Aids" to aid your wounds. The pain may not totally get away, but it'll make things bearable 'coz you know you're not alone. Sometimes, all we need is someone to tell us that someday, "It's gonna be okay". When people stays with us through hardships, those were the best kinds of people we could have. And they're more worthy of our time, love, and affection. Genuine friends, through thick and thin--are like pearls...rare and not easy to find...and really precious these days.

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Song is called "Wag Na" by OPM artist Yeng Constantino :))

VANISH

Disclaimer: photo not mine.

I’m starting to shiver

In this cold quiet ground

Waiting for my hero’s return

To savage my heart’s frozen sound

The heartbeat’s gone

The sun is down

The stars hide

Behind the cloud’s silhouette blinds

The darkness envelope

The misty eyes of love

Behind a river flows

Lost in an ocean’s ghost

I start to shiver

In this lost heart of mine

Deep in a river of sorrow

In the vast lonely night

I cuddle myself for life

While my thoughts linger behind

Why have you deserted me?

Am I not worth the fight?